How do I unlove?
I can fall in love easily. I can love magnificently, I think. I can prevent myself from falling in love, for a while. I can delay being in love, if I try. But I have no influence whatsoever on either becoming not in love or unlove someone, once I love them. I can make it less, but it won't go away. I have no clue.
I can't simply move on, that would seem shallow. I can't just forget or ignore, or I wouldn't have been so in love in the first place. If it were that trivial, it wouldn't feel like love to me.
So perhaps I love too much. Perhaps, what I call falling in love already is what most people experience as 'being in love'. For me, the appetizer is already a main course for most. Perhaps for them if they'd be as much in love as I can be, would feel like a whole endless buffet or a 5 course meal. Is it me or is it them?
I just don't know anymore. Break-ups have always been hard on me but this one feels lik…